Current mood:

apathetic

I haven't been avoiding anyone. Really I haven't.... I've been avoiding everyone.
I don't really know what's been going on with me lately or why. Things just haven't been right, felt right, or made sense for months. Outside of a few dribs and drabs of HP, I haven't been able to write much of anything (including my lesson plans and lectures - so I've been practically lecturing straight from the book: something I hate doing).

I'd like to thank everyone who's tried to keep in touch with me. It is deeply appreciated. I do want to get back into the swing of things, but just haven't had anything that I felt was worth saying and a note of well "Hi, I guess I'm still alive sort of" seemed like it wasn't enough content to even spend the time typing. But, Hi, I guess, I'm still alive - sort of. Not that it really feels like it most of the time.

What frustrates me the most is that as hard as I've tried to figure out why, I can't. For the most part things are no better or worse than they usually are. Except for the fact that getting out of bed half the time just doesn't feel worth it, and I can't seem to enjoy the classes I'm teaching which are actually going better than last semester, and the necessity to make pleasant chit chat at work is infuriating me.

Anyway. I just wanted to - what? ... Whine a hello... is the closest description I can think of to this post. Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the new year.